So God was testing me. Shhhh just listen. SO last night I recorded my entry for this competition I was entering called the I’m A Star contest.
Basically this contest would change my life. Broadway/musical composer Scott Alan will put the winner into either his New York or London concert singing a song he will write specifically for you and then have you record that song on his new album which is distributed worldwide. How about YES. This could be IT. THE chance.
So to set the scene the deadline was vague, just “the 15th of March”. Being the overly cautious person I am when it comes to important matters I set the deadline as midnight between the 14th/15th, Eastern Time. That’s 2PM for me.
Expectations: I had recorded my song (“I’m A Star” by Scott Alan - literally seems like it’s written for me) but not edited it. I just expected to wake up, do a quick edit since it’s live, and upload it and submit it before lunch.
Reality: I didn’t wake up as early as I planned to. T-minus 3.5 hours ‘til deadline. Then the world ENDED when my computer would NOT TURN ON. I press the power button, things light up, then it dies. I repeat the process about 20 times before resigning to the fact that my life is over. Beyond the competition this has massive implications for my life and it all hit me at once.
However, I feel this too coincidental; there is something larger afoot. Yes, I mean spiritually. This competition is big and I feel like I actually have a shot at it. What if something is trying to prevent me from doing this? So I proceed to beg God for help and walk around outside in the rain talking to him, trying to figure out what is going on and what I should do. By this time my mind has done it’s problem solving and I know I can still make this video and upload it with a different computer. The quality will just be average but I am stirred and I know I will do that in pursuit of this dream of mine.
So I set out to make this happen despite all the trouble so far. T-minus 2 hours ‘til deadline. Just as I’m about to re-record my dad, who I have now knighted as the shiniest knight there ever was, said he will come home from work so I can use his computer to create the video. So now I re-record with the normal quality of sound, I do it in one take, it sounds better than before, the video looks better, I’m done recording by the time dad gets home. I edit it on his computer, upload and submit.
But that’s not the end of the story. No. This is why I know it was a test. All through the morning I’ve been pressing the power button only to be disappointed again. However, once I’ve gone through all this crap and come out the other side with a better result than what I originally had, I click that button one last time and my computer comes to life.