I have a dilemma. In actual fact I think I’ve come up with a course of action while thinking about what to write but even so I want your opinion.
As you know I will be traveling to New York, New York for New Years and Darren’s show - not to mention numerous other shows and sights. As you also know I have no job currently and no money. I’ve been searching for work but nothing ever comes through. I have a couple of hospitality jobs I could apply for but my complete lack of hospitality experience seems to make me an instant write off (which begs the question ‘how the fuck are you supposed to get experience?’). Not to mention my current resume is self-employment as a graphic designer, an eLeaning developer, and a teacher’s aid for a Korean student camp.
I have this weird education/digital design career path without having any qualifications. Augmented further by my current moonlighting as an after-school Drama teacher on Thursdays. At least my resume is shaping up as good material for a Disneyland Character Actor application, haha. I digress.
Today I made a plea on Facebook asking for any job openings people know of - Facebook is pretty much a fool-proof way to get a job opening in my experience. It turned up results with a friend giving me a link to what is now my dilemma. A job that gives me the money and the hours I was looking for, requires no experience, provides training, is available for instant start and will allow me to save up more than I need for this trip. It’s probably enough to get us to Orlando and WWoHP. HOWEVER, I pretty much have to sell my soul to Satan, climb down into the pit and become a telemarketer for a discount holiday group.
I’m probably a little vain and proud but I consider myself an artist and a talented person. I know it’s incredibly pretentious and I’d probably annoy the fuck out some people for saying this but I have preached to myself time and time again about how I won’t demean myself by taking a job I know to be shitty and, I guess, unworthy of me. Out loud this sounds pompous but it really makes a lot of sense if you apply it to yourself. So, because of this perspective I have, I have caused this dilemma.
I suppose I could apply to these other jobs but to be honest I don’t know if I’ll get a better deal financially.
I’ve tried to put a positive spin on the job. Make it like an acting exercise. Point out that I get to talk all day and interact so it will keep me stimulated. But part of me knows that doing this for months is going to kill me inside a little.
Basically what I think I’ll do is apply to a couple of other jobs tomorrow as well as this and see what happens. I kind of had my heart set on waiting tables - I just love that environment - so that’s just more conflict. This telemarketing is just so secure though…there’s no guarantee I’ll even get it of course.
In conclusion, at least it’s better than working at McDonalds. I think I’d rather not go than work at McDonalds.
P.S. I typed this whole thing on my phone and it was a mega bitch. It’s taken nearly an hour. Clearly I am insane.
